Alright anyways, I’ve already had my share of 2 weeks holidays. Sure I had Malay work to do but it was still pretty much all good. I shopped, hung out with friends and spent time with my parents. Even my eldest brother went to Brunei. So the house had 5 people (including my grandma who went to Brunei with me) .. after more than a year already. It was fun, though of course what very important person was missing. =) That person’s sure missed! (I wonder if you check here… Hmm)

So alrighty, I had multiple bad experiences and news while in Brunei and maybe that carried forward. But no, I didn’t go all depressed and moan and drown myself in sorrow (but I think I can) - it wasn’t THAT bad. For my flight back here, there was a 2-hours delay and so I only arrived at the airport at 1 AM. So, I had to trouble my uncle and auntie so late/early.

So it was back to college life on Sunday night not because I had classes then of course but more of going back to the apartment like before I left. It felt.. the same as though I didn’t leave. Monday I woke up before 7 am so I was early for class. Class was fine except when it came to Chemistry. I had the biggest blow ever from that results. Like, ever. So I splurged and indulged in food that day. I had chocolate. And chocolate again when I was back in my room. I was sad… but my own fault nonetheless.

The next day I went to the education counselling and got two universities to look into. I was feeling happy and content. Before Malay class I had more than an hour to spare so I went to the ADP library for the first time. Let’s just cut the story short: I lost my pendrive. Not lose, but more accurately, stolen. And all that time there was only one guy next to me. Blurgh. I was even more depressed and furious.. with myself. But luckily for me, I had a copy of the most important file in this laptop of my brother’s. Or else, I’d be doing research all over again for my English presentation next Wednesday.

So yes, yesterday was overall, luckily, a good day. No, make that a GREAT day, especially when compared to my past two days. Went out with the classmates after class to Sunway Pyramid. The highlight would be watching Kungfu Panda. I take back what I said - it WAS really good. I recommend the show to anyone who needs a good laugh or good entertainment and would like to see pretty realistic (and cute characters, too) animation.

I hope my next days are as good or better than yesterday. I think it would be: my parents are coming back on Saturday night for 10 days! It may be short but it’ll be fun. And my eldest brother will be back from his mountain-climbing the next day. Ah, I see light! =)

YAY! Surprise surprise, but he did. But yes, I must say Archuleta did much better yesterday. Shocking, but YAY YAY YAY!

*sidetrack a little* See, I’m cursed. Apart from being sick all the time, and getting overly stressed for exams and leaving blanks on the paper, today because I was in my aunt’s house to watch American Idol since I have no where else to watch right, we were watching nicely and it was almost the end already when Carrie Underwood sang “Last Name”, and … the power died. Wee, it’s my fault probably. So anyways, I had to find out online at 11+ am. So fun.

And yes, I have the very last paper tomorrow, Physics! It’s soooo fun =)

Oh not just that though; I had a fever since Saturday night and still have a sore throat now. Hence, I’m in my grandma’s house.. again. This is probably the 3rd or 4th time I’m missing classes. See, it’s easy to keep track because I’ve been to the doctor every month! Well March was the toe and April some, health analysis one, but still, visiting the doctor (and paying RM50) all the time is not fun.

Furthermore, I fall sick every one week before exams! It happened last year, and it’s so unfortunately, happening again. Oe-em-jee… Time to take tablets and cough mixture (eeww~)

And no, it’s not a good time right now. I just keep getting pissed off by people.

And no again, I don’t know why; it just happens all the time.

And yes, I do realize this is my third consecutive anger-filled post.

But frankly, I just needed an outlet.

So, maybe it doesn’t respond, but at least I need not anticipate negative reactions.

So, don’t worry, I’m fine.

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It’s been almost a month since my last update. I frankly, didn’t even realize. Time’s been going by so fast - it’s like its ‘foot’ is stuck on the accelerator. It feels as though there’s hardly any time and before you know it, the day passes you by.

And really, things have happened. My eldest brother’s been back here, like I said in the last post and leaving next week. My toe’s still swollen but I’m walking normally now and my head doesn’t hurt anymore. I’ve visited after her month-long UK vacation, getting a bookmark, keychain with the my initial, a pen and Ramsay’s chocolate. I’ve been eating a lot of junk food again. I’m taking Malay classes every Tuesday 5-7 pm and Friday 3-5 pm, not because I want to but simply because it’s compulsory. And don’t comment laughing, “WHAT?! YOU HAVE TO TAKE MALAY CLASSES? HAHAHA!” because trust me, I’ve heard more than enough of that from people around me, and I don’t need more. Tests have started and I’ve only once slept before midnight, I believe (and the exception was because I only had 4 hours of sleep). Oh, and I even missed one class last Friday. It’s history - for the first time in my life, I missed my class by 10 minutes. Also, my report is due Monday but I haven’t done the main parts yet. Today, I lazed around and made good use of my uncle’s Astro (he and my aunt are overseas), with all the movies, music and cartoons. I must remind myself that I have sort of two maths test and Physics test, for which the homework I’ve not done ever since my fall and I barely remember the facts. There’s also the very ‘important’ Moral finals - so important that all classes are shortened to 45 minutes. So Tuesday’s classes end at 1.15 pm for me. What else? Oh, I don’t know what a friend is to be if it’s wrong to tell the friend to not procrastinate. Frankly, I would rather be reminded and told off if it really helps me start earlier. But no, my informing is taken as a scolding. Great, I feel so.. delighted knowing that such a comment is considered, a scolding. Really now, I could shut up and just listen to all your talk and TRY to sympathize. If you’re reading this, I read yours too and so, you should probably understand. Oh, and I apologized because, frankly, I didn’t want to lose you as a friend because of such a thing. And if you think I’m annoying or noisy, don’t bloody hell talk to me because really, it’s going to ANNOY YOU right? How can you possibly handle it? For goodness sake, is it THAT hard to inform me NICELY and not announce to the whole wide world?! Then, you call me names. I dismissed it, but when I was pissed, it was unacceptable. Oh yes, call me PMS or whatever. Like you’ve been through such a thing. Having to keep repeating every sentence is irritating. You can call me emo but heck, I can’t take it. I’ve tried, trust me, I have. But when all these things just keep shooting at me, how the hell am I suppose to change? The only way to change looks like to shut up and don’t talk. Or maybe, be insensitive to everything if possible. Everyone says I’m scary and angry and they keep thinking so. They’re not changing the impression - and that’s even easier than what I have to do. For all these years, people conclude that I’m scary. When I was carrying out my duty, everyone fears me. When I move away, people tell new people I meet that I bite. When I’m not pissed, people always think I’m pissed….

End of emotional blog

That’s really, almost what I feel. You can again call me emo. I don’t intend to see change after this post but I just needed an outlet to ‘talk’ about all these. Like I said before this, it could be you if you THINK so. Or it could simply be, over-paranoia. Till the next post, and oh, this could be part of the angry blog on top - I totally dislike it when comments come in asking or stating things different from what I blogged.. it somehow shows part insincere commenting. If so, use the tagboard instead please - it serves more appropriately. The comments should relate to the related post - is that not the rule of thumb?

1. I’ve been back from Brunei for more than a week. It feels like it’s been ages but anyways, it was all good hanging out with the friends and spending time with my parents again. And also going back to the (old) school, catching up with teachers and all.
2. My eldest brother came back on Wednesday night. It was also the day the modem died; well, not exactly THE day it died, more like the day I found out it died. Note: The last time my brother came back, I returned his laptop in a blue-screen-of-death condition. My second brother says it’s a “face problem” - do you get it?
3. I was back in my grandma’s house on Wednesday because the next day was a public holiday on which the morning I slipped and fell in the bathroom and.. *cuts story way short*.. made a trip to the clinic and then to the hospital, sat in the wheelchair - it was an experience! (I’m serious) - had an x-ray done, 3 injections to anesthetize my injured toe to straighten it. So yes, my toe is currently bandaged apparently not because there’s a tiny crack in the bone (*gasp*) but more of a “reminder that I’m injured” or so that was what the doctor said. I also hit my head on the curb, making such a loud “thup” that my aunt at the back could hear and tell that I had fallen down. But no worries, there’s nothing wrong with it but a bump .. or so I hope.
   So much DRAMA! So..
4. I’ve not been to college since then. Went today for Chemistry practicals. My dear S3-ers: Wei Hsien, Yi Ling, Mun Mun and Huei Ling came down to “welcome” me! The whole class knows I “pok kai” which actually means I fell frontwards on the road in Cantonese I think so, not a very accurate description. My eldest brother seemed to find that very amusing.
5. Procrastinated on class/homework.
6. Done a little updating in the site page and the links (go visit, people!).

The next day, I went out with my friends. Long time no see! It was fun really. We i.e. Rita, Jess, Christine, JW, J. Sim and Angel talked, went to the arcade, ate, laughed, walked around. We sat at the food court for about an hour, talking, staring in silence, talking again, laughing etc. Oh and eat too. Then, we went to the arcade. I’ve never been to the arcade here, not to play at least. But really, it felt like we burned our pockets. It’s like B$5 gone, just.. like.. that. But we all enjoyed ourselves! We (failingly) threw balls into the hoops, raced in the motorbikes which I had to do once in manual because I had no idea how to change options, so for the first half of the race, I was on Gear 1. The buttons were so small on the handles. Thanks to NFS Underground or whichever, I think it was the drag race, I knew how to change gears. Sorry, but I can’t remember what it’s called. Help, anyone? Haha.

Anyways, today I went with my dad to Tasek Lama for walk/exercise. I almost collapsed in the beginning. My left leg hurts. OH OH, speaking of that, my course had a SAM Fiesta - Disco Night 2008 on Thursday. It was FUN! Pictures might come later. It was fun dancing crazily with the classmates. Oh yes, I’ve got lots of work to do this break. It really sucks. I’m supposed to complete the interview questions before I sleep and it’s already 1.30 AM. AND, I’m going to my school to visit, which means, I have to wake up at 6 something. I’m going to be all sleepy there. Oh and my classmates, namely, Yi Ling, Sheng Yi, Lok Mun, Alex and Wei Hsien have been combined chats. And the topics are, endless, and.. pointless too sometimes. Haha. Oh, and they gave me a name, why that name I don’t know. So, Olga and Simon, I have mentioned you too!
So yes, I’m back home. I have after all, lived here for the past 10 years or so. Maybe, in a few years time it wouldn’t be home anymore, but for now, it feels like it. My bed is like, mine. My home’s, my home. My parents are here, so it feels like how it’s been for the past 5 years. I’ve missed home, I really have. And I’m going to miss this familiar place again soon - please pass on by slowly time. My parents, the friends, .. not so much the hang-out places but yes, you get the drift. I miss my brothers too. I don’t recall expecting missing everyone so much really. But now that we’re all in different places: Brunei, Auckland, Melbourne and KL, it strikes me every now and then that I really do miss them. Oh and, did I ever mention that I absolutely hate leaving my comfort zones? I was all happy leaving KL, but I’m so not going to be when I leave Brunei again. It simply tells you, which is home to me, doesn’t it?

I’ve got a couple of close friends here. Sure, I’ve got great friends back in KL too. But friends in Brunei have been with me for a comparatively longer time, and they know me. In time, my friends in KL, we’ll know each other way better than now, but at this very moment, friends here are the ‘usuals’. I went out with them on Saturday. Though I haven’t really been in contact with them, it felt like, nothing much had changed. So, maybe the hairstyles have changed, schools have changed, classmates and friends have changed, but I felt almost like I never left. Even though the Mall is absolutely boring, I really did have fun. I’m probably only going to meet up with them only one more time before I leave, but I’ll be back! In a couple of months. It’s just that, the leaving process just, isn’t fun at all. (Right bro Tarnos?) It feels great to be with my parents again. I know eventually we’ll part ways, but this is the comfort zone - it won’t ever change. My family will always be the people closest to me, always.

Thanks to Chien Yee, Esther and Destiny for the get-well wishes. I really appreciate them but I was all well already when the comments came about. Oh well, nonetheless, maybe I’m even better than ever! Haha.

Anyways, the last week before mid-semester is here. Frankly, I can’t believe I’m into my 3rd month in Taylor’s, nor having left Brunei for 3 months or so - and now, going back for a week. I miss my friends, that’s for sure and of course my parents. Now that my friends have started college, I wonder whether we’ve got time to hang out together. .. Really, time flies too quickly. BUT, college has been so far so good; I think it’s getting better by the day. With great company of the crazy classmates and housemates, it can’t get any worse right?

Oh, I’ve got my results back. Most of them at least. I didn’t fail Specialist Maths, but I was 9 marks from failing! *grins* Chemistry, a quarter of total marks gone. I’m going to have assignments to do during my holidays. At least, I have a computer and 24 hour Internet access! I can’t wait!

Oh, I didn’t go to college Tuesday, and Monday after my CT. I had conjunctivitis and so the doctor informed me that I am not allowed to attend classes. It’s red eyes by the way, if you didn’t know because I realized a lot of people had no idea what it was. And, my runny nose and throat and all was as bad. So, stronger antibiotics. I was happy that I didn’t get any cough mixtures because I absolutely hate cough mixtures. Ugh~ So, I stayed in my aunt’s house from Monday till Tuesday. I missed a bomb threat in INTI college (next to Taylor’s). Apparently, the police and fire brigade were there and people were evacuated. Then on Thursday, there was an earthquake right? My roommate who goes to the Taylor’s Business School - a multi-storey building - felt the shake and the whole building was evacuated too. Such “excitement”. Oh and on Friday, I went with a couple of my classmates to play foosball in the ECA Centre. I’ve never played before so I was like saying, I’m sure to score own goals - and I really did. - -” But it was fun. It would’ve been worse playing the striker side.

So yes, that’s all I’m going to update for now. My aunt and uncle’s going to here anytime soon to send me back to hostel.