I think it’s plain pointless that I visit my site everyday (more than once) and yet I don’t update - even when I feel like I want to. Oh well, since right now, there’s no one online that I’m talking to, I might as well spend time blogging.

Today’s the 22nd, well almost the end of the day which means I have about a week and a half till I leave. It’s a little scary really, the thought of it. After all the years being here in Brunei, I’m going back to my hometown. It shouldn’t be that bad right? Considering, I do go back twice a year.. but then again, it still seems foreign for now. It’s a new place, new people, new friends, new routines.. But the key thing that is bugging me is what I’m going to study. I was thinking of just doing SAM (South Australian Matriculation) with Maths and the three Sciences - you know, the safest way so that I’ve got more options? But then again, I have yet to find a science major that actually is of interest to me. I’ve struck medicine, pharmacy (which I must say, I’ve time and time again been asked to take up because of good.. prospects?), accountancy, anything business, and also probably engineering. There isn’t much left really. And I’m more into design but I’m not confident that it’s a safe choice. I don’t have an Art grade, and I haven’t done much hand-drawn art in the past 5 years? Also, I might need a portfolio - actually, I’ll most definitely need one if I enter a design course after college - which I do not have and doubt will be able to come up with one in time anyways. So yes, decisions decisions. I’m looking for something of both actually, like architecture and interior design. They both combine science and art, but building buildings.. I’ve never ever thought of it so, I don’t have that much an interest and no passion for it. Interior design sounds interesting but there’s apparently no market for it around here. I really wished I know what I want to do.

I won’t be seeing my friends for more than two months at least. Actually putting it this way makes it sound like the 2-3 months are just going to come and go. But, I doubt it. There’s going to be a lot of adjusting to do. Almost everyone seems to get a shock when I say that I’m going to be leaving early December; it just sounds so fast, I guess. I actually wanted to get birthday gifts for some of my friends done before I leave but considering, I’ve not thought of what to give till now, I think my plan isn’t going to materialize (sad, I know). I should just get to thinking about it right? And not say I won’t do it? Ah, lack of confidence like always. I’ve got Speech Day on Sunday, and on the day before, the rehearsal. I’m going to watch the Nativity Play on Monday; school’s fun fair on Tuesday - whole day probably; Prom/Senior’s Night on Wednesday; Senior’s Party on Thursday. And then.. that’s still to be planned. I’m going to have to start packing soon too. But right now, I’m just going online, playing Gamehouse games, watching shows/movies - I have yet to go out to the cinemas to watch something, TV, sleep, eat. Totally uninteresting. At least, tomorrow I’m going to go out (finally!).

Comment replies:

Mable: Yes, have to make a wise choice alright. But I’ve got to make it fast..
Steven: All the best to you too!
Chien Yee: Haha, the pros of having a blog huh? I shall stalk you from your blog too!
Destiny: Oh no, it’s college then university THEN only to the workforce - till which, I can wait still. :p
Rilla: Yes, let’s all hope. And yeap you’re right about the date!
Esther: Haha, you should feel special!
Maria: Thanks! Yep, I’m going to miss school. It has, after all been 8 years.

Goodbye stressful O’Levels! Goodbye school! Which, is kind of sad to say so. After 8 years of routinely going to school, now it’s a new place, time, and routine to adjust to. I’m going to miss school here, and the ever-wonderful friends and just, life here. And which means decisions on college - can you believe that I only have what, a few weeks to decide on what to study and I’m no where near? But yes, it’s time to relax and enjoy for now! Oh and I got my birthday card from the councillors, and I realized just yesterday that my birthday’s exactly a month away (from yesterday that is)! But it also means, I’ll be leaving soon, like less-than-a-month soon. Okay, happy thoughts now.

Just talked to Esther and Jun Jie; it was nice talking to Esther again. She used to annoy me everyday in class last year (right mei? Haha). Ah, good times. I miss her. =( Oh well, anyways. There’s going to be a class party later at 7. Wanted to go out in the afternoon (like right now) but the plan didn’t materialize. So, for the last time, we’ll have a get together as a class (though, not everyone’s going but I heard most are). It should be fun, and memorable. =) Will blog more soon.